Well this weekend was quite the drama filled one that led to me being stressed most of the weekend. We were suppose to have the kids all weekend but the mom decided to change at the last minute after we already had plans of our own. After some messages that should not have been text the truth came out she had planned on going back on her agreement and keeping the kids from us for Christmas had we gave in to the changed plans. So in the end we got the son and she got the daughter for Christmas morning. All of it caused me and Josh to argue which put stress on the baby. I stayed sick with headache, stomachache, and just ill all weekend. Me and Josh fought the worse its been. I felt he should have fought for what was right the original plans and he just wanted the drama to end. I want go into too much detail because its family business but I will say things will change!!!
I had a very bad scare I bled a considerable amount that was enough to alert me something was wrong. It has however since quit and I seem to fine and still pregnant. Every time I see blood I worry this could be it, this could be the last moment I am officially pregnant but each time I am jumping to conclusions and end up fine. They never tell you what to prepare for when you get pregnant they don't help with the anxiety that you face with your first pregnancy, the stuff you wouldn't know. I am just lucky that members of my family have bled through some of their pregnancies and have assured me it can be quite normal.
I have still have had only one day of true morning sickness. It was Saturday, Christmas Eve, I waited too long to eat so all I got was dry heaving. I have realized that if I eat within an hour after awakening I usually am fine unless I eat something the baby doesn't agree with.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
December 20, 2011
I am exhausted Baby Glynn decided to keep me up ALL night with heartburn, nausea and constipation and the pains that go along with it. It was awful. I went to sleep finally at 7 am and was up by 12:30 so much for a restful night sleep.
I haven't had to much fear today, I mean sure I still check the toilet every time I pee just to make sure but all in all I am pretty confident that I will have a healthy baby and everything will be okay. I have felt some pulling and tugging going on down there but I am confident everything is fine!
Sorry this blog is so short but sleep is calling me.
I haven't had to much fear today, I mean sure I still check the toilet every time I pee just to make sure but all in all I am pretty confident that I will have a healthy baby and everything will be okay. I have felt some pulling and tugging going on down there but I am confident everything is fine!
Sorry this blog is so short but sleep is calling me.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Okay Second Scary day
On December 18th at 3:00 in the morning I had my mom take me to the er again spotting again but this time cramping was involved. I passed a small blood clot which scared the crap out of me.
At the er they didn't take me right back this time they simply made me sit and wait. All I kept thinking was what if it was different what if this time I was losing the baby and they just had me outside waiting like it was nothing. The one thing that pissed me off was this little cocky nurse made it sound like because I was only 7 weeks there was nothing they could do it wasn't their problem to fix my body was just getting rid of the damaged embryo. First of all you freshly graduated smart ass my baby has a heartbeat therefor its not an embryo to me ITS MY BABY and if you can't respect the fact I am pregnant WITH A BABY you need to stay out of my face. Okay so maybe I didn't say that but I will say she didn't stay long due to she knew she pissed me off and I was very argumentative with her. Call it hormones but Momma here was on the defense And I would have wiped the floor with her ass!
The Dr. however was the complete opposite very understanding, talkative, and seemed to care. I really felt like he calmed me down tremendously. I may have been very overprotective but he told me I have a reason to be cautious of my unborn child because that is my right. He told me that during the implantation process which should last at most another two weeks I may spot but he said some blood is normal what is not normal is looking like I found my period.
WELL I will stop stressing and enjoy just being pregnant after all I am blessed with my first and could be my last I better enjoy while it lasts!
At the er they didn't take me right back this time they simply made me sit and wait. All I kept thinking was what if it was different what if this time I was losing the baby and they just had me outside waiting like it was nothing. The one thing that pissed me off was this little cocky nurse made it sound like because I was only 7 weeks there was nothing they could do it wasn't their problem to fix my body was just getting rid of the damaged embryo. First of all you freshly graduated smart ass my baby has a heartbeat therefor its not an embryo to me ITS MY BABY and if you can't respect the fact I am pregnant WITH A BABY you need to stay out of my face. Okay so maybe I didn't say that but I will say she didn't stay long due to she knew she pissed me off and I was very argumentative with her. Call it hormones but Momma here was on the defense And I would have wiped the floor with her ass!
The Dr. however was the complete opposite very understanding, talkative, and seemed to care. I really felt like he calmed me down tremendously. I may have been very overprotective but he told me I have a reason to be cautious of my unborn child because that is my right. He told me that during the implantation process which should last at most another two weeks I may spot but he said some blood is normal what is not normal is looking like I found my period.
WELL I will stop stressing and enjoy just being pregnant after all I am blessed with my first and could be my last I better enjoy while it lasts!
The scariest day of my life!
On December 16th at about 9:45pm I started spotting. Now every woman has a difference of opinion some I have found out spotted during their pregnancies and it was nothing and some agree that blood is scary to see when you are expecting. I was one of those expectant mothers who was terrified, no more like so many emotions I couldn't possibly tell you all.
I went to the local er and they took me straight back and I had blood work, catheter, pelvic exam, and ultrasound....the results were that my growing bundle was healthy and still growing. I also found out I was further along that we though I was seven weeks already not six and that my due date was now August 3rd, 2012.
I was nervous when going in for my ultrasound because this was the moment that they would find out if Baby was right where Baby needed to be or in my tubes. Baby was right where Baby needed to be and I seen the heart beating through the monitor and heard that heartbeat. For a woman I don't think there is any greater sound we can hear than our new born child's heartbeat that thu thump sound is precious and I could listen for hours. Baby's heartbeat was 160 high and healthy.
I love the fact that there is this life inside me growing, maturing, and preparing to come into this world. I can not wait to meet my bundle of bliss because I have waited so long with many disappointments along the way in life.
I went to the local er and they took me straight back and I had blood work, catheter, pelvic exam, and ultrasound....the results were that my growing bundle was healthy and still growing. I also found out I was further along that we though I was seven weeks already not six and that my due date was now August 3rd, 2012.
I was nervous when going in for my ultrasound because this was the moment that they would find out if Baby was right where Baby needed to be or in my tubes. Baby was right where Baby needed to be and I seen the heart beating through the monitor and heard that heartbeat. For a woman I don't think there is any greater sound we can hear than our new born child's heartbeat that thu thump sound is precious and I could listen for hours. Baby's heartbeat was 160 high and healthy.
I love the fact that there is this life inside me growing, maturing, and preparing to come into this world. I can not wait to meet my bundle of bliss because I have waited so long with many disappointments along the way in life.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Day 1
On December 12th, 2011 I took an at home pregnancy test, I have taken several before, often I feel pregnant or show symptoms but the test always came out negative. I was certain I was pinning my hopes on something that wasn't going to ever happen...a positive result.
On this day, however, it was different, I was 16 days late and had been nauseated for a few weeks. I had so much stress that I figured it was because of it. In November I thought I had breast cancer only to find out I didn't but I did have Fibrocystic Disease. I will settle any day for that over the alternative, cancer runs in my family and it is not a joke we take seriously.
I bought a very generic test costing only a dollar and with mixed emotions took it. I was certain again it would be negative considering all the other times I was certain I was I wasn't. After all I wasn't throwing up only nausea and had no other symptoms other than being extremely tired ALL the time. As I waited for the results I played with the idea what if its positive "Candie what are you going to do if its positive?", was all I kept asking myself. Within seconds it had two lines....WAIT WHAT????? Two lines, that's never happened before! Am I? I look on the box to make sure I am correct in what I think is the results, as if the company changed the usual results one line was now positive and two were negative instead of how it has always been.
As I sat there for a minute staring at the two lines I waited for the second to go away, it didn't. All these emotions arised in me that I didn't even know I had and the only thing I could do out loud was cry and say "I am pregnant." Three words I never thought in a million years, if I lived that long, would ever say.
This is my blog documenting my first pregnancy. It was suggested by a friend on facebook named Jessica. I never thought about taking my blogging very seriously but after her suggestion I really thought about it and this would be something I could have for my baby to know what it was like for me being pregnant with him or her. What better way to know what your mother felt and went though than to read her own words.
For anyone that reads it, first thank you for thinking I have something valuable to say and take time to read it and second I hope something I say inspire you even if its in a small way or remind you of what you felt if you have kids already.....Let the journey begin.
On this day, however, it was different, I was 16 days late and had been nauseated for a few weeks. I had so much stress that I figured it was because of it. In November I thought I had breast cancer only to find out I didn't but I did have Fibrocystic Disease. I will settle any day for that over the alternative, cancer runs in my family and it is not a joke we take seriously.
I bought a very generic test costing only a dollar and with mixed emotions took it. I was certain again it would be negative considering all the other times I was certain I was I wasn't. After all I wasn't throwing up only nausea and had no other symptoms other than being extremely tired ALL the time. As I waited for the results I played with the idea what if its positive "Candie what are you going to do if its positive?", was all I kept asking myself. Within seconds it had two lines....WAIT WHAT????? Two lines, that's never happened before! Am I? I look on the box to make sure I am correct in what I think is the results, as if the company changed the usual results one line was now positive and two were negative instead of how it has always been.
As I sat there for a minute staring at the two lines I waited for the second to go away, it didn't. All these emotions arised in me that I didn't even know I had and the only thing I could do out loud was cry and say "I am pregnant." Three words I never thought in a million years, if I lived that long, would ever say.
This is my blog documenting my first pregnancy. It was suggested by a friend on facebook named Jessica. I never thought about taking my blogging very seriously but after her suggestion I really thought about it and this would be something I could have for my baby to know what it was like for me being pregnant with him or her. What better way to know what your mother felt and went though than to read her own words.
For anyone that reads it, first thank you for thinking I have something valuable to say and take time to read it and second I hope something I say inspire you even if its in a small way or remind you of what you felt if you have kids already.....Let the journey begin.
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